WANTED! Respect...and a whole lot more!

Mondays...are Mondays.  So this one was no different.  It had it's ups and downs.  Believe it or not its ending with a down. :(  I have had plenty of days where I get fed up with getting no respect but today I feel more fed up...more ready to make a stand for it.  However, the one person I need to respect me most just used the line "respect is a 2 way street" in the most insincere way, which just goes to show that I don't think that statement had any heart behind it, or any meaning really.  Man up!  Furious, confused, heartbroken.  These are all words that describe how I feel but it is also sooooo much more than just that!

Days like this just go to show how much I am just ready to get back to college for sooooo many reasons!  One being, I can surround myself with people who care about me and want to hear me out and have time for me.  And will respect me; as I will respect them.

"Do onto others like you would have them do onto you." -Jesus

In my heart, I believe I do give respect where it should be given.  I just feel like the same respect is not given to me always.  Maybe I am wrong...but at this exact moment..in this exact circumstance..I do not believe that I am wrong.

I love going to work and working hard and receiving gratitude and my boss's respect for the hard work I do there.  I love seeing and being with my friends and boyfriend because I feel, see, and know their respect for me.  I cannot always or often say I feel that way anywhere else really.  And THAT is what hurts me so bad deep down.

But I still have the courage, happiness, love, and much more to put on a smile everyday and be the bright and cheery me.  SO peace out girl scouts!

Love and all it's worth

Today I started thinking about how in two short weeks I will be moving back to college...in another town...45 miles away.  45 miles away from several people I love very, very much!  And then I started to tear up...because that may seem a short distance but with school work, gas prices, and prior commitments traveling back and forth more than just on weekends will be nearly impossible. :( 

First and foremost, I will miss my true love and best friend Gary. <3  The past 10 months with him have been amazing.  We have been friends for over a year and a half and I am now proud to call him my boyfriend and best friend.  I recently questioned myself as to whom I considered to be my best friend; it came down to the fact that Gary has been there for me, no matter what, for practically everything for our entire friendship.  I never want to lose him because of this fact.  Gary doesn't just love me like others do; he cares about me in a way that I don't believe I have ever found in any other friendship.  He can make me smile at some of my worst moments and laugh when all I want to do is be angry or sad.  He also makes me feel SO happy 24/7; even when I thought I was already at my highest state of happiness (if that makes any sense lol).  That is my best short description of my love, friendship, and feelings for Gary.  SOOOOO when today I started thinking about all the fun and great times we have had together this summer while being able to be in the same town, and thought about how I soon will have to say "See you later, I Love You."  and that later will have to be over a week long!  Compared to us usually seeing each other every other day this summer...this week long break seems scary, sad, exciting, and good for us.  I know that it will all be okay and that we had to be apart last school year like this too, but now realizing he is my best friend I am scared to not have him closer to talk to.  However, that is what phones, Facebook, and Skype were created for. :)  SO I know that I can make it through our weeks apart by not letting it get to me much and by referring to some great lyrics! For example:

"I've never opened up to anyone"..."I know that if we give this a little time, It will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find.  It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right."..."No I don't want to say goodnight.  I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams tonight."..."So baby I'm alright, oh, let's do this right, with just a kiss goodnight."    ~Lady Antebellum "Just A Kiss"

"Tonight, I'm gonna love you like there's no tomorrow."    ~Chris Young "Tomorrow"

"Love don’t run, love don’t hide.  It won't turn away or back down from a fight.  Baby I’m right here and I aint going anywhere.  Love’s too tough it wont give up no not on us.  Baby Love don’t run."..."This is gonna makes us stronger, it’s gonna make forever longer!"    ~Steve Holy "Love Don't Run"

Now that I have spilled my love guts all over you and you probably never wanna read my blog again, I will not say I'm sorry, but I will say thank you for listening to me tell you the truth. :)  I WILL say a small sorry since I am still working towards how to blog like a true blogger lol.  

Thank You, Love, and PEACE OUT! ;)

Day 1

Welp I am pretty proud of myself for only drinking one 12oz can of Mtn Dew today :) THAT'S progress!  Work...kinda sucked today...but I lived through it and I hope tomorrow can be better.  

The countdown til I move back to Wayne, America is 18 days..woot woot!  However, it is not all 'woot woot'...I know I am gonna miss my family (no matter how nerve racking they are right now)...I am definitely gonna miss my boyfriend...and I am gonna miss making money everyday at work(even though I hate the heat there).  But it is 'woot woot' since I will be back to some sort of routine all decided by me and me alone :) I will be surrounded by friends :)) and I will be able to worry about me and mostly just me :) There are and always will be positives and negatives to the whole situation.

Recently my boyfriend, Gary Reppert, got me hooked on True Blood and now I cannot stop watching episode after episode at nights into the early, early hours of the morning lol. LOVE IT!!!

I don't know what else to say now lol.  I promise I will get better at this and make it more interesting as I learn more.  Peace out girl scouts!  :)